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Happy chinese new year my friendssss... What a boring off day + holiday.. I literally did nothing the moment i woke up from sleep until evening then i went out with mummy for random impromptu dinner at....

Manhattan fish market! Hehehehe my treat..

I was kinda frustrated that all shops were closed. Even metro?? I wanted to buy something but oh wells.. Dont these shops have malay retail assistant?? All employees chinese ah? Then where the malays go? Work at ICA isit?? HAHAHAHAHA xD

Hieeee! Kalau free free tu, sudikan la mendengar cover ku bersama teman ku ini! Hehehehe :D

Macam biasa, im the guitarist and my gf is the vocalist. Heheh. Sorry uh no hap our faces. Kitorang tengah masai. Bahahaha lols!

Ehhh hi blog! I'm sorry I totally forgotten about you :\

Haishh anyways! Just a quick update perhaps. Yesterday after my morning shift, i met up with dearie Syu for dinner and catch up session, duh! So long nebe meet you sia! xD miss you lots~

My treat, at Sakura buffet @ Dhoby Ghaut Green park.. :D

HAHAHAHA sorry eh some photos like duplicated.. becos im just SOOOO excited over the iPhone apps. You know the pic stich lah framestatic lah macam macam lah..

Pretty righttt my girlfriend~ HEHE <3

Wells.. It was a night spent well with the right person. Where you can just talk anything, and having her to understand your feelings and every rants. Our conversation was like..

me: *bla bla bla bla..*
she: SAMAAAA..

One moment later..

she: *bla bla bla bla...* 
me: yaaa exactly!

Another moment...

me: *bla bla bla bla...*
she: itu pasal!! korang ajar kan ni jantans..

Last last...

me: *bla bla bla bla..*
she: omg we're in the same boat lah raudhah..

Hehe! She understood EVERY single thing i said becos she went through it. I understood what she felt becos I also went through whatever she went through.. We understand each other SO much becos we were hurt/treated the exact same way by those egoistic bastards. Herghh. Lol it was funny, kitorang cerita cerita kitorang sendiri yang geram! Hahahahaha! xD

But we did feel better. I think we left like 9:30pm? We were like the last few customers.. Haha we made sure we ate food worth the cost paid which is $27 per pax i guess? Hmm yups. Eat until boncit. Eat until three months pregnant. Heheh..

That night was more of a updating each other's love story. Practically, we're in the same boat. Nasib kita sama. We were like agreeing to whatever each other said to the extend that we randomly hugged each other!! xD hahaha but whatever lah, guys busted us. It's their lost! Who cares, we still have each other yeah! ;) someday you will realize that i'm a diamond, not a rock. Bodoh. We just cant stop saying they're bodoh! Plain stupid creatures. And kurang ajar.

After what ever happened to us, few months back, oh ya the period where she got heartbroken and i got heartbroken was the same timeeee. Omg kalau dah bestfriends tu bestfriends lah kannn.. And now, both of us like no mood. Literally no mood for guys. Haizz.. Yes, cant deny the fact that eventhough there are guys chasing after me but im just pushing them away. Cant help it though. Like dah lazy dah nak date ke nak ada apa2 with anyone else.. ZZZZ.

Haha. Furthermore i dont wanna fake my feelings. Being outside with someone yet having another guy on my mind? Nahh. That's not very nice. Well, i believe the both of us can do it, we can carry on with our life. GIRL POWERRR! Hehe but surely it takes time. Redha itu ikhlas, pasrah itu menyerah.

Hmmm so yeah. Thanks for ystd. Hope to have another date with you girlfriend! Muakzzz <3<3<3

Assalamualaikum :)

I just typed a long-but-not-that-long nonsense blog post. Yet i deleted it away becos the update like takda maksud?! Haha im always at my dashboard, but i have nothing to update. I dont know how to put it in words perhaps? Oh wells~

Next time k? :))

Btw nah, ni gambar aku jumpe pat tumblr, dora the explorer! HAHAHAHAHA xD

"swiper no swipping! swiper no swipping!"

HAHAHAHAHA KAYYY BYEEE~

i've cleaned up the interior of my locker.
now it's ALOT more spacious and better, cannot tahan messy places.
boleh jadi stress! hahaha!

I dont like how you wanna make me feel guilty, like trying to gain sympathy from me. You repeatedly said you dont have the appetite to eat, in the hope that my next reply would be "why no appetite?" and then your reply would be "becos of you.." something like that perhaps? I know your tactics, mister. But no, i didnt ask that, i immediately changed the topic right. Haha why, becos i cant be bothered. Really. Do you wanna gain my love becos of sympathy or sincerity that comes from within my heart? Definitely the second one right? But as for this case. You wont get both. Trust me. Kalau aku taknak, means aku taknak. And ya another thing. You, telling me that you did your prayers, or going to carry out your prayes, that wont melt me. Kau cakap kau solat asar ke solat maghrib ke, go ahead, itu tanggungjawab seorang muslim. I'm not going to, "WOW lelaki ni solat seh.." Bringing in religious issues to make a good impression of yourself wont make me fall for you either. Buat amalan biar ikhlas, bukan untuk nak menunjuk-nunjuk. I'd rather have a guy who is religious yet low profile.. Hmm what else, oh ya about the jealousy issue yesterday. You got jealous becos you saw i posted "heyys nama sedap, boleh berkenalan? ;)" at someone's profile. So you msg me saying, "sempat main fb". Kau, cemburu buta, sakit hati, abeh nak tegur and sarcastic with me. THAT, pissed me off seriously. And then after i explained to you that the guy is just my cousin, baru tau nak apologize eh. Lain kali, think before you speak, ask before you assume. Furthurmore, who are you to get jealous? Seriously wake up, you're not my bf. You're not supposed to feel this way, and if you ever feel jealous, im not responsible for that. Kau yang menaruh perasaan for me, kau sendiri rasa cemburu, what has it got to do with me kan? Im not being arrogant or what here. I'm simply tired. Perasaan semua orang aku kena jaga, then what about mine? Pfft...

Ok selesai sudah ngomelan saya pada hari ini, ketemu lagi di episode minggu depan. Sekian terima kasih. Bye! Assalamualaikum! :)

Okay a lot of people got the wrong idea or understood wrongly the reason of my despair.. Let me get this thing clear :)

It's not about me wanting him as my boyfriend. I dont give a DAMN if he ended being my boyfriend or not, but the point is, i just DONT LIKE IT when guys play around with my feelings. Because all along throughout my life, i NEVER played around with any guys' feelings. I'm hundred percent sure about this. So, now why the hell do i deserve this? :) and THAT made me so angry, like what the fish?! Hahahahaha!

Really, aku pantang orang main main kan perasaan aku. Nak kena sepak ke nak kena tampar? Sila pilih :))

Haha i think partly the reason why things ended this way is becos i ego and i jual mahal. Yes, honestly im very ego that's why i gave the silent treatment and expects him to come after me. Takkan girl go after guy pulak kan?? Hahah. And yes i jual mahal alot. I mean i will always make it hard for the guy. Takkan nak org ckp raudhah so easy pulak kan?? Haha indirectly by doing this, i just wanna see the perseverance of the guy, and how persistent he is. If all this aspects is not in him, i should think twice before getting married to him. Kalau sebelom kahwin je macam endah tak endah, lepas kahwin lagi lah jgn harap. Hehe..

Now, im always trying to be optimistic. Thinking how lucky for it to happen before we even got together. I'm so blessed with the friends i have all around me, how they are so concern about me. I dont need that bastard anymore.. Dahlah desperate for a woman's love. Nmpk sangat you cant live without woman. Well im still surviving without any guy. Not that i dont have, (ramai tengah tunggu ni actually haha!) but becos i prefer NOT to have anyone special as for now :)

All the best and good luck when taking your law exam for the third time. See, how nice of me to wish this eventhough you terribly hurt me back then :))

i shared this like a week ago at my facebook.. but i just feel like sharing it here also haha! too funny that i had to tell everyone about it xD

It's been 3 years since I commited into Apex mentoring session and sad to say this year might be the last.. :\

It's not that i no longer like it or bored of it.. But i dont think i can commit anymore. Like busy with my shifts and school too. Haiz. But im very heavy hearted to leave. Really. Life's gonna be different :(

After months and months not meeting this gorgeous lady here... Finally!! A date! ;))

We went wdls transit for late lunch hahaha.. like of all places eh makan situ xD

Then lepak at the McD while the boys play pool upstairs.

Then lepak at wdls civic there. Like there's so many things to catch up lah. Hows your life, hows my life.. Hahaha.

she: *asks boyfriend* you ada $2 i nak gi beli takoyaki?
me: eh takpe takpe, i pay for you.. you pay for me...
she: huh?
me: eh! HAHAHAHAHAHA! i mean i pay for youuuuu! hahahahaha!
she: hahahaahahahaahahaha!

Well thanks zyra for the great the company tonight <3<3

I wonder what you felt during that 2 seconds eye contact with me just now... Anger? Guilty? Regret? Nahh.. Dont think so right? As for me, i just felt like a mixture of miss you yet hate you. I'm sure by now you hate me as much as i hated you. But what the fish, i hate how my heart suddenly raced upon seeing you. Seriously raudhah, stop it eh. Btw this is not the nervous kinda feeling, this is wholely due to ANGER and HATRED, that's the reason for the sudden fast heartbeat. Tskk..!

Whatever happened to, "nanti i dah gi sm mana tau you jalan tegur i pun tak.."
So sape lupe sape ni skrg?

Whatever happened to, "no matter what, nurur raudhah is my number 1 :)"
So pompan tu ah no.1 skrg?

Whatever happened to,"no matter what it will always be raudhasdi :)"
So dah tukar aishasdi plak skrg?

You. Are. The. Perfect. Example. Of. A. Sweet. Talker. Mother. Fucker. Ok. Pegi. Mampos.

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okay so like everyone's been talking about this, i have the application Path in my phone now but i have no idea how it works and how to use it.. :\

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results are out and i passed my law exammmmm! wheeee! :)) so happy lorr. alhamdulillah!

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this was just now, righttt before night shift i went to vending to get a bottle of wintermelon, a bottle. but when i insert $1.50, i end up getting eight bottles of it! hahahahahaha murah rezeki ye.. Alhamdulillah, terima kasih.

Kk actually im very sleepy, i just got back from night shift haha so, good mornight! ;)

Hi sorry for the annoying cheeky photo in the previous post hahaha i know mcm so syiok sendiri. But memang la, syiok sendiri in the counter becos tengah jam. Khehehe..

Anywayyy.. today i went shopping again! Using the vouchers of cos duh! I bought that bonia $261 and guess $69 handbag, i bought a belt eh mahal seh $42 hahaha tapi beli jgk, then i bought a bag $25 for my lil sis, i bought sports shoe and $101 sports attire too..

I think i spent like a total of $500 ada?? Hahaha.. Kalau pakai duit sendiri jgn harap la i wanna spend this much~

So ya, the rest of the voucher i gave my mum. I gave up. No idea what else to buy and tak sanggup wanna shop around again. PE to the NAT. Hehes.. Btw it's the new year in a few hours time. Yes im at home, no im not celebrating. I dont feel anything pun about the new year. Haha! Whatever it it, i wanna erms say a few things.. Erms.. I wanna apologize to everybody if all these while i ever said anything that hurt your feelings intentionally or unintentionally. I know im very frank and straight forward when i update blog. Hmm.. So ya, im so sorry for my wrong doings! :)

New resolutions?

Well, practically the same like last year lor. Cant recall what.. But ya. Should be the same thing since none of them were fulfilled. HAHA.

I ended 2010 with a broken heart, i ended 2011 also with a broken heart. So i hope the year 2012 will be a much more fruitful and beneficial year for me, insya'Allah. May i be a better person, a better daughter, a better muslimah :)

Goodnight everyone! Morning shift tmrw. Happy new year in advance! (cant wish exactly at midnight haha)

haiz. i think im thinking and missing the wrong guy. and all this is due to my brother's scrambler. he fetched me from work just now and that was my first time on his bike btw.. in my heart was like hmm i dont like the feeling of tumpang-ing this scrambler. it doesnt feel good, macam tak sedap. i still prefer super4.. so agak agak sape bawak super4?

dia lah sapa lagi. haiz. tetibe mcm rindu naik moto dia :'(

sudah la sudah. anak ayam anak itik, pegi tido pun cantik~

k gdnight.

Yayyy! i finally bought myself black framed glasses! :))

Something which i've been wanting since dunno when.. :\

Haha today i spent my voucher again, alhamdulillah for that. Otherwise punyeee lah cerewet nak mampos hahaha.. I bought these items :))

(exclude the flower earrings.. ni case nak matching kan aje haha)

That's braclet btw.. Jangan korang pikir tali ikat basikal sudah haha!

And lastly, i got myself another pair of jeans! HEHEHEEE.. Happy giler becos this jeans fits me perfectly! Actually my body proportion ni abit weird lah, normally kan, if the waist is perfect thigh area will be TOO tight, if thigh area perfect waist pulak very loose.. BUT THIS ONE! All area perfect except for length lah duhh.. Mummy gonna alter this for me.. So ya, happy lah. No stupid proportion issue hehe.. :D

Ni beli pun becos 2 for $99. So i get one for me and another pair for my brother.. Sweet eh aku belikan abang seluar jeans? Hahaha! Lol! Padahal pakai voucher je~

Hmm k lah it's almost 1am i think i shall not waste anymore time.. Sleep time. Goodnight all! Goodnight shahrukh! Love youuu! <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

khehehehehehe my hp homescreen ;)

This was an impromptu meet up, as usual, macam eh tmrw you free? want meet? ah should be can ah? k jom. Hahahaha gitu lah. So me and my girlfriends had our lateee lunch at Fish&Co becos i wanted to use my voucher mehehe~

Do the 3 of us look alike?? Mcm triplets ada tak?? wahahaha!

You know, we went from ION to Raffles City to Bugis Junction just for the sake of me, i want to kononnye shopping tapi satu benda pun takde yang berkenan? Hahahaha perangai memilih ke tahap maha agung seh.. But really la, masok kedai ni keluar kedai tu, there's nothing! Nothing that attracts me. I didnt feel like buying anything hahaha waddahell~

In the end we randomly went inside Esprit then i saw this particular jeans.. As you know i've been looking for light blue jeans cos i do not own one.. So ya this costs $9.90 hehe

Klah no actually it's $109.90 but since i used the voucher i paid the balance only~

Hehe so happy with my new jeans that i can sleep with it if i want to bahahaha nonsense aja ni budak eh..

Kk goodnight! Im taking MC tmrw.

Now, after all the shitty moments i've been through, i cant deny the fact to say that now in my eyes, i see 'guys' as a bunch of egoistic bastards. I'm gonna hate all of you.. Well, i know this may sound rather ridiculous but that's just for now, temporary anger decision you see..

Bleargh. Cb.

K handbag returned. I sacrificed my half and hr break to meet up with him, but when i came over to his counter he treated me like shit. I was like talking to the wall. Omg people, i dont know how else to describe how fed up i was with him just now. Kau dah busted aku, skrg aku mintak explaination kau cakap "entah, takde pape" Eh hello kau ingat aku patong pe takde perasaan? Dulu kau jugak yang terkejar kejar kan aku. But what the fuck now? Ditched me for another girl. Bila aku tanya whats the matter actually, kau cakap aku takyah tau. Sial? Pentingkan perasaan sendiri, then what about mine? You dont consider about my feelings at all do you. I know you assumed i was having another guy when i actually DONT. Then you jump to conclusions and now aku jadi mangsa. I gave you an opportunity to explain before i label you as a bastard, but you chose to remain silent just now. Korang tau tak betapa geramnye aku that never in my life, i throw things, just now was the first time aku hempas tu handbag depan muka dia. You asked for it boy. You made the situation worst by being selfish and ego.

Now that's how i am when im angry. Allah s.w.t tu Maha Mengetahui. He knows who is in the right and who is in the wrong. And its clear enough to say im not in the wrong cos i didnt have any other guy in my life except for you. Gasak kau lah. It's your lost.

Since its 3am in the morning, past midnight already.. So i shall say, yesterday d&d was great and entertaining :)

The food was ok ok only lah.. More to the chinese style i should say~

And ya.. So unexpectedly i won lucky draw. There's a total of 80 prizes and i got the 4th prize! hahaha.. Guess how much??

$1000 worth shopping voucher~ $300 takashimaya and $700 capitalmall~ Heheh..

Dont know what to buy with that one thousand.. :\

Klah goodnight everyone. Nahh i bet everyone's asleep except for me. Hmm k bye..

Ya k fine im supposed to be happy but what i saw at fb just spoilt my mood. Tsk..

Tonight will be sleeping with a broken heart again </3

Not even $1000 can cheer me up. That proves money cant buy you happiness people.

adooiii..

i accidentally clicked 'Home' at facebook and saw his status update oh mai gadddd :'(

i dont know how to describe how hurt i was when i saw him relating this status to another girlllll... :'(

ouchhh :'(

he has really really really forgotten about me alreadyyy... :'(

the pain is too excruciating i really feel like deleting him away...

haiz.. you're such an asshole irresponsible bloody bastard!

sial peh jantan ah.

Assalamualaikumm~ Ystd i brought my family to Madjack place.. (thinking the food is nice).. But no it wasnt haha. Oh ya the reason for the treat was simply becos i get my end of year bonus! Eh dah bilang? Belom? Haha k nvm

i ate this baked rice i forgot the name.. its cheesy so macam muak :\

thats seafood rolls, softshell crab & butterfly prawns~

sementara tunggu makan sempat syok sendiri... bahhahaha!

mummy <3<3<3

Then we jalan2 around to look for my wedges for D&D this saturday.. Ni saje je try not that i wanna buy, but i find this heels rather cute! Hehe!

At last i bought this $55 wedges..

Lawa? Haha i bought this cos i find it sweet :))

Adoiii~ kk enough shopping eh! Mentang2 bonusssss..

Wow! I got a shock. Onsugar changed it's internal layout. Everything is alien to me oh mah gad~ Hahaha! But since when also i dont know. This shows how longgggg i didnt log in here..

I wanna update but dont know about what. Haha! Dahlah. I think i just show you my new accessories..

That was $7.90 hehehe...

Those are $14.90 each..

Ah ni bukan accessories k! Hahahaha!! :)

This one was what i ate last night after shift at Rasa Rasa..

Makan besar nmpk! Mentang2 gaji~

I was contemplating between these two dresses at metro just now and finally chose the red one! Hehehe! Nice or not? And it's selling at $29 onlyyy! Apa tunggu lama lama! Nanti di ambil orang! Hahaha! Actually I love the brown also.. But I compare red and brown, the red stands out more.. Kan kan kan?? Most probably wearing this for d&d.. So ya. Now i dont have to stress stress nak pakai ape eh utk d&d hahaha.. xD

OH YA.. I bought this too!! Hahahahahaha k ni giler...

I've replaced my usual Maybeline make up to.... CLINIQUE! Oh my god!

Hahaha! But it's okay. I dont feel any regrets becos I've been saving up my money for this make up :))

I bought the concealer, 2-way-cake powder and blusher for $152. The rest lipstick, lipgloss, mascara and facial wash i got them all for free! :)))

Hahahahahehehehe im such a happy girl todayyy! K goodnight world!

Assalamualaikum friends :)

I hope all of you readers are doing fine. I'm not fine cos I'm sick? Haha duhh. All this is becos of I drank hot chocolate one night and the next morning I had sore throat which leads to coughing which then leads to fever. Haha. Hot chocolate~ hot chocolate~ Harapkan sedap aje tapi side effects, fulamak! Hahaha!

Now im lying on my bed updating blog using iPhone so there wont be any photos for this post hor. Malas nak gi study room use laptop. Hehe. Yesterday after first afternoon shift i do overtime until 1am. So considered three hours haha so random of me. If possible today also want do OT but I'm not feeling well.. Haiz maybe next week I start overtime again.

I've not been browsing thru the fb news feed for a week I guess, just to take care of my own heart. Haha hmm sometimes I think about my life I kinda pity my heart. Always getting hurt over and over again. Haizz.. Well I guess Allah s.w.t is testing me again. And also telling me that I should listen to my mum's advice. Right Allah? :))

Thank you Allah s.w.t for showing the right path, leading me to the right decision.

I guess moving on is just one of the part and parcel in life.

Hahaha! Thanks twitter. You're so right about this :) I knew from the start we aren't meant to be together cos I just feel something is not fine between us but I chose to close my eyes to that last time. But now, wa-la! I'm glad that we're separated becos YOU are definitely not destined to be with me. Alhamdulillah :))